It was actually quite funny and disturbing all at once, I can't remember how it happened, just suddenly one day it fell on me, like a heavy wet blanket, i don't dream about it, i just remember it happening, i dream, but i never remember my dreams, my dreams are not useful to me so i simply discard them. It was a surreal experience - something happened, I got half way through saying it and then doubled back and made it into something else, how did that happen? It was weird, I keep reminding myself that it can't last, it shouldn't last, it won't,

is it denial or is it reality - who really knows, who will be testator. We are at different times, different places, suggestions are made and then l;eft incomplete, commentaries are misinterpreted...  Strikes me as strange that when a new leaf turns over it doesn't just flip once it does so multiple times, as if in gust of wind. The day doesn't matter, nor the exact circumstances, I guess it was his reaction, the smile on his face and the welcoming expression, at that point I knew.

It is all decompressed, there is some tautness, but it is largely imperceptible, it is the outcome of a journey of discovery that is just beginning.
Sometimes I sit alone and think, it is good, other times I think it can't last, it shouldn't, it won't

I called him today, my call was rejected, he texted me, I responded, I asked how things were, he said he was still out of work and that circumstances had taken a turn for the worse, I texted him back, he went non responsive., I hope it can't last, it shouldn't, it won't
We're like peas in a pod, we sometimes land up calling one another just when the other is thinking about them, it is weird, some sort of cosmic confluence I guess

I wrote to him today and received a long response back, it was a good response, filled with an array of snippets of information. I forget why I actually reconnected, I lied when I suggested why, maybe i was telling the truth, it doesn't matter; we have reconnected and that is all that matters.

Indeed, it seems winter is 'actually' upon us, though last night was cold, when I awoke this morning, everything was dusted with a fine 1" of powder and though it looked like that was it for the day, as things developed eventually it started snowing with gusto this afternoon.  My plans to go to The Darjeeling Limited last night were gazumped by KKL who decided libations were in order and accordingly we downed a couple of the black stuff before parting company. I then went on to see Enchanted, a positively delightful little mindless Disney thingamybob which I thoroughly enjoyed and may make the exception of being prepared to go and see again!!

This morning I went to Greenlake and did a couple of rounds of the lake with a friend. Breakfast at the Bluwater Bistro ; a not half bad omellete though I have to say it lacked chives or capers or something.....not enough zing!

The walk was fun, I developed a couple of blisters but they will mend in no time i am sure, chin got a bit cold though so at this time of the year it is important to take a scarf too. Max was on top form, well behaved, didnt get too excited by the other doggies at all.

The drive back was a little tortuous, the snow was pelting pretty heavily and on the 520 visibility was a little obscured. I got home ok though, just in time for autumnthingto get going on her art smack down and tryst. Young JEBJ was on top form, i was feeding him snow today and he was so thoroughly thrilled by the whole thing that it was delightful. I am just now trying to teach him that it is SNOW dear boy, not RAIN!

Curried/masala chicken thighs for dinner with pasta - was quite scrumptalicious rounded out with a delicious Rhone Red Parallele 45 2005